:: Tensai Shoujo ::

:: Thursday, February 27, 2003 ::

Yuck, I was really moody today. It's because of "girl monthly issues" so I can't really control it, but I felt like I was being crabby without meaning to and that made me sort of sad. I felt like I was crabbing at Eric too, which was the really upsetting part, but he understood. We didn't spend the evening watching the movie like we planned, mostly because I was feeling crappy and just didn't want to concentrate. Plus, both of us had seen the movie already, so it wasn't a big deal. So it wasn't a bummer of a night, I just feel crappy and probably should be going to bed soon.

Damn, have you ever felt something caught in your tooth, so you go to floss it and then it won't quite come out? Yeah, damn that hurts. Note to self: no pistachio nuts before bedtime.

So we had a 3DO game system just sitting around the house collecting dust, and so we decided to give it to Eric because we thought it would be a nice present for him. So my dad boxed it up and we gave it to him tonight. He was happy ^_^ And now we have less stuff sitting around the house. I get a good feeling when I can give something away to someone and it seems like they'll really appreciate it. It's awesome ^_^

I'm so tired right now... *snore*
:: Jessi 2/27/2003 12:48:00 AM [+] ::
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Right, so I watched American Idol for the first time tonight. I was really avoiding it because it was so damned popular, but it was on while we were eating dinner so I got to catch a little bit. I guess I tuned in on the right night, because maybe the third woman who sang got into a fight with the judges about whether she was "over-singing" or not. I thought she really was, and not doing a very good job of singing the song or staying in tune anyway. When they pointed it out to her, she went off on some spiel about singing "for the children" and this and that. It doesn't matter who you're singing for, it's not a sentimentality show, it's a show for people who are good at singing. Moron. (Boy, am I sounding old, bitter and jaded or what?) I didn't watch it long enough to see who had been chosen to go on, but I think I've had enough of the show for now.

I didn't really do much today. I didn't want to go to my first two classes, so I didn't. They weren't essential anyway, so it didn't matter. Instead, Eric and I spent some quality time together, then I went to Japanese, and then we hung out some more afterward when the person he was supposed to interview for a class project didn't show up. It was okay. We had apple tea and chips and cheese, and hung out and it was nice and liesurely. Just the cure for a nasty winter day like we had today. Tomorrow, because we're skipping film class because we've both already seen the film, we might rent a movie (we may actually just rent the one we're seeing for class, just to watch it in a comfortable environment) and get some dinner. Nummers. So it'll be a really nice wednesday night activity.

Well, I'm off to work on a little art project now, so maybe I'll have more to talk about later.
:: Jessi 2/25/2003 09:40:00 PM [+] ::
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Well, it took me a while, but I can finally post and tell you that I wasn't nearly as mad yesterday after I got home from work. Sorry if anyone was worried, I just was really pissed, and Blogger was down last night because their hardware was being updated. I'm still alive :)

Anyway, I haven't been up to much since yesterday, mostly just school and getting my readings done for class. In my Kurosawa film class, the prof has decided to start giving us pop quizzes on the readings, since no one was doing them otherwise. I wouldn't have minded if he'd come out at the beginning of the class and said "because of these circumstances, we'll be having a few pop quizzes this semester," but the fact that he just didn't say anything about it in the syllabus or course description, and then took percentage points off of our midterm paper to give to these quizzes, was just sort of low. Now my Taiwan class, on the other hand, he does it right. We also get sort of pop quizzes on our readings, but we do it after having discussed them and gotten our ideas out there. Then the prof relates our discussion to the theme of the class, which is Taiwanese identity. I don't mind these quizzes, because they make sense and aren't meant to be punishment for something we didn't do.

Ah, it looks like the movie "Ikiru" is scheduled for my Kurosawa class on Thursday. That means I get to skip, because it saw it last semester and wrote about it in a paper, so I know all about it and can come through on the "journal entry" we have to write about it. Thank goodness for redundancies. I think we're also watching "Rashomon" which is also a really good film, but, ha ha, I wrote about it in my final essay for film class last year, and don't have to watch again because I remember like all of it. Thank goodness for my awesome mental abilities. Anyway, that means I can liesurely hang out with Eric rather than sit with my ass planted in a chair for over two hours watching a movie I've already seen. That's not to say they aren't awesome films. Ikiru is one of my all time favorites now. But anytime I can get out of class is a good time.

I went to my sister's band concert tonight. It was sort of fun, and also sort of depressing, because people always come up to me (because I was just so famous back in the day) and ask me if I'm still playing. Then I have to tell them no, I don't have time, and it seems like such a lame excuse, but it's true. And then people start asking me about school, and how Japanese is going, and it's just such an annoying thing to hear over and over again. It's nice that people are interested, but it gets sort of old after a while.

They played a few songs that I had played when I was in band, and I couldn't help but think that the didn't do nearly as well as my class had done. I don't know if it was just the fond memories that I had of band that were swaying this opinion, but I think it was actually a pretty accurate assessment. I still remembered two of the songs enough that I could point out basically all the mistakes that were made. I'm so bad ^_^ Anyway, my sister and her little percussion group did their little pots and pans routine, called "Smoking Pots," and that was a real crowd pleaser. They did a really good job, and it's a novelty act too, which lends it some vaudeville charm.

It's a gettin' late, so I'm gonna wrap it up. Stay tuned for more excitement next time. Maybe I'll have something to rant about too ^_^
:: Jessi 2/25/2003 12:21:00 AM [+] ::
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Oh my god, I am so angry now that I've been crying on and off... *inhale*

WHY DID TARGET HAVE TO CALL ME TODAY?!?!?!?!?!!!! WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I HAVE TO GO IN AND WORK ON ONE OF MY ONLY DAYS OFF EVER?!!! WHY DID MY MOTHER GUILT ME INTO GOING IN WHEN SHE KNOWS HOW STRESSED I AM AND HOW MUCH I WANT A DAY OFF?!?!?! I FUCKING HATE THIS, I'M SO MAD!!!!!

*exhale* yeah, I'm really mad. I knew this was gonna happen, because any day that I'm not scheduled I get called to come in and work at that fucking dirty stinking hell hole of a shitty store. When do I get my damn free time? I more than deserve it, I need it to keep my sanity. I was gonna do enriching stuff today, like doing art and maybe writing a little on my story. But no, I don't get to do that now do I. I get to go to work for four hours, get abused by lower-class people who have no business speaking to me, listen to babies cry, get bumps and bruises like I do every time I go in and work, and then come home with an aching back and no motivation to do anything else but eat dinner, maybe work on a little homework, and then stumble off to bed to a depressing, dreamless sleep. I feel so worthless right now, like my needs mean absolutely nothing to anyone else, even in my family. How I wish my boyfriend were home for me to talk to. I go cry now.
:: Jessi 2/23/2003 12:13:00 PM [+] ::
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I fucking lost my post again, and after whining so much about my day today. I'll recap for you:

Today I had to be to work at 8:00, which means I would have to leave my house at about 7:45 to get there in plenty of time. Well, this morning I woke up, looked at the clock, and suddenly realized that it was 7:47... two minutes after I was supposed to have left. So I threw on some work clothes, and got ready as fast as I could, and then my mom was supposed to give me a ride, but she managed to spend like five minutes doing something in the bathroom. I might have been on time if she hadn't decided to do that, grrr... anyway, I was only a couple minutes late, and no one noticed, thank goodness. But I hadn't had a shower and felt nasty all day. It was so nice to take a shower when I got home, you don't even know.

Today was kind of fun, because I spent it at Super Target and the grocery store, so it was all about food and bargain hunting. Plus I got some coffee from the coffee shop, and that made me really giddy, and I could miraculously tolerate my dad's bad jokes for a short while. I know, people do odd things under the influence. Really.

Well, that's about it. If anything really exciting had happened today, I could have talked about it, but my day was pretty quiet after my morning fiasco. Sorry kids. Oh, I'm on the lookout for some tall black lace up boots (preferably not too shiny) for my Yuna costume. Keep your eyes peeled, will ya? Thanks.

P.S. Lee got a new tattoo today that he wanted me to mention. Go see.
:: Jessi 2/22/2003 10:10:00 PM [+] ::
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Well, I went to school, had class for fifty minutes, and it was all good. Class was easy, I got called on for answers that I knew, and basically just got to hang out and laugh because it's Friday and no one really wants to think Japanese anyway. I went over to Eric's to keep him company for a while because he's a sicky. It was nice and quiet there, and I got to watch him play video games. His apartment makes me sleepy, it's so warm. And that's okay at this time of year :)

Tonight I actually decided that I was going to make a Yuna costume. Maybe for Anime Central which is coming up this spring...

Well, since I posted this morning, I'm really out of things to talk about. I hope I have a good dream tonight, so then I'll have something to say tomorrow ^_^
:: Jessi 2/21/2003 11:25:00 PM [+] ::
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I decided not to post last night because Eric was sick and went to bed early, so there was no reason for me to stay online doing anything. I didn't even have homework to do last night! What is the world coming to...

Anyway, I had another wonderful dream last night, and to save myself the time of re-writing it here, I'll just cut and paste from what I told Eric this morning:

The dream started off with me in an airship, and I think I was supposed to be a guy, because I was searching for this girl that I liked (though with me lately, the genders don't seem to be too absolute). I was feeling a little funny, like I was hiding a secret or something, but I proceeded into a room, and saw the girl staring out a window. I couldn't see what she was looking at. then I heard a voice inside my head telling me that she was gazing at her new master... so I ran to the side and looked out the window, and saw the Eye of Sauron, and knew what secret it was I carried. He began to approach the cabin, and I raced throughout the room trying to figure out some escape or some place to hide, and finally decided that I had to get out. So I took something big and heavy and broke open a window. We were flying over mountains, and it was too high for me to jump, but the airship started to sway back and forth more and more violently until it crashed into the jagged side of one of the mountains. I jumped out and ran down the rocks as fast as I could, until I reached a plain that was flat and sandy. It was at this point that I could consult a mental map which would guide me to the place I had to go, which was a giant lake called "The Lake of Lune" (which does have connections with actual Middle Earth). I raced as fast as I could, but I could sense some creature gaining on me, and I drew my short and nearly ineffective sword and then stopped. I fought with him, barely putting scratches on his scaly skin, but then my friends showed up (whose faces I couldn't quite make out) and they helped me fight until the monster was defeated. I told them that I was thankful, but that I couldn't let them come with me, because it was too dangerous. So I went off again, supposedly on my own across the featureless desert, not realizing that my friends were following me some distance behind. I finally reached the cave where I was supposed to go underground, and it was then that they showed up again. I was mad, but then realized that I probably couldn't do this on my own, and took two of them with me. The three of us descended into the underground catacombs, and then realized that, instead of some festering underground wasteland, we were faced with something even more daunting.... A shopping mall! And that's when the dream ended.

Yes, folks, I really do have odd dreams most of the time. And about Lord of the Rings too! I'm so lucky. Speaking of lucky, Eric is the super awesomest guy ever, because he got me the DVD Academy Awards rip of "The Two Towers." Well, he got me the first of two or three parts. Even if he doesn't find me the rest, though, it's still an awesome thought and I was so happy.

So, strangely enough, this time I'm leaving because I have to eat breakfast and get ready for school. Maybe I'll have more to talk about later in the day, who knows?
:: Jessi 2/21/2003 11:07:00 AM [+] ::
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Eric is sick, and that makes me sad. He looked miserable today. At least when we were at his house. And he was really warm and stuff. I don't know if I'll get it or not, but I really just want him to feel better.

I had a test today in my Taiwan class which I didn't really study for, but I think I did alright. We were allowed like a notecard with notes, but I didn't use mine. I couldn't think of anything to put on it other than some spellings, which I ended up not needing anyway because the prof didn't care whether we abbreviated or not. So I was really just going off of my knowledge of the subject, which is really what testing is all about anyway. It was a good test and I think it accurately measured my knowledge on the subject, which I can't always say about every class.

Greg sent me some stuff in the mail that he got when he was over in Asia. It was really nice. He sent a Japanese Coca-Cola bottle, which was good because of the abundance of katakana to practice reading. He also sent a Hello Kitty silverware set (including little chopsticks) and a Pokemon jet plane. It was really nice and I didn't expect to get anything from his trip to Asia. I haven't sent him a thank you yet, but "Thanks Greg" if he reads this.

Well, in full knowledge that I can't pull off another post like last nights because not much really happened today, I'll sign off for now. Hopefully no one will get too sick the next couple of days. We'll see.
:: Jessi 2/20/2003 12:13:00 AM [+] ::
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Boo, I got my Japanese test back today... 83/100. Not so good (well, for me anyway.) It would have been just fine, but the couple of questions I got wrong counted for big points. Like I got five points off on one question alone, for goodness sakes. People rib me for getting upset with myself, because I did technically get a B, and there are people in that class who did way worse than I did, but it's kind of dumb when you score poorly in the class which basically constitutes the core of your major. I will study harder next time, for sure. And make sure not to stay up too late, either.

The weirdest thing happened in class yesterday, by the way. Starting on Friday, our class had to give presentations that were basically short biographies that we had written. We had to stand up in the front of the room and read off our papers, and have a vocabulary list and stuff like that. Fine. I don't like doing it much at all, because, while I'm just fine in class reading out of the book or giving answers to exercises, I get so nervous when I'm the focus of attention. But I suck it up and do it, so I can at least get a good grade. It's not really so bad, just three minutes of torture and then you're done. Well, there were a couple of people gone from class on Friday, and we didn't have time for everyone to go, so some people had to present theirs yesterday (Monday). Well, a certain ex of mine had to go on Monday because he wasn't in class on Friday. He's usually very cool in these types of situations, and I've never seen him falter on such a presentation. Well, this time, he got like 1/3 of the way through his presentation, got visibly and audibly nervous, and said that he couldn't go on, so he didn't. The sensei told him that he could do it at the end of class, but he wouldn't do it then either. I can't imagine what would do this to him, but it was sort of weird. He's not as infallible as he would have had me believe, I think. I was proud that I got through mine with little incident, at least.

I kinda went off about him tonight to Eric, coincidentally. I just keep picking up on things that weirded me out about that guy when we were going out. It just wasn't normal, and I feel like I went for such a long time expecting things to progress normally, and then I'd go home crying when they just didn't. Like I was saying with Eric, there's gotta be both emotional AND physical for there to be a complete relationship. And it's not like the physical has to be such a huge part, but it's important. It's one important way to share your love with someone else (assuming there's substance to the relationship to begin with.) *Sigh* I don't have anything to complain about now, but I'm sort of angry at myself for not seeing what was going on when it was happening (or not happening, as the case may be).

I've spent the evening downloading the two most recent System of a Down CDs, "Toxicity" and "Steal This Album!". I don't know what it is about their music that I've come to like, but I just started liking them after my sister made a CD with a couple of their songs on it. Maybe it's just because they sound, I dunno, oddly hardcore or something. It's fun anyway. Eric gave me a CD today which he bought thinking it was Japanese techno, but it's really piano music. I'm not making fun of him or anything. I happen to like piano music, though, so it worked out fine.

I think I would be tired right now but for the fact that I practically slept in two of my classes today. One of my classes I think I could have just skipped, but I was getting an assignment back in it and I wanted to see what I got. I was actually pretty bummed because I got to that classroom and noticed a sign had been placed on the doorway saying that "History 3715" had been canceled for the day, and I thought that was my class, but mine is "History 3615"... fucking a. So I had to sit through that class feeling like I'd been cheated out of freetime, all because of one number's difference. In my second class it was really warm, plus Eric was rubbing my shoulders from time to time, so I really could barely stay awake. And of course, the prof for that class is extremely boring, so that didn't help much.

Today after school I chilled with Eric at his pad for a couple of hours. We got some potstickers from the Dinkydome Chinese Restaurant and then he cooked some rice to go along with it, which was nummier than nummy. I like having a man cook, it makes me feel important ^_^ We watched some Oprah after that, only because she was redoing people's houses with only the redecorating stuff which could be procured from Wal-Mart. As cool as it was, I would not want to say that I redesigned my living room to the Wal-Mart standard. That's just inviting hillbillies to come and stay over at the house. Sorry, you know how I don't like Wal-Mart. Well, that's not entirely true. I do like it for its sheer entertainment value (going there after midnight any day of the week is basically like getting to see a circus sideshow for free.)

On the bus on the way home I almost started crying, because I was listening to the Lord of the Rings Two Towers soundtrack ^_^ Laugh all you want, I get so moved sometimes that I just can't hold it in. Everyone needs something they can attach to, and LotR is mine, I guess. I just get all weepy remembering the particularly powerful scenes (like when Gandalf comes charging down the hill towards Helm's Deep with the Rohirrim, damn, it's awesome.) I can't imagine how weepy I'll get when I get to see Return of the King come this December... only about ten months left ^_~

See, I can write a good entry when I'm awake and have the time ^_^
:: Jessi 2/19/2003 12:13:00 AM [+] ::
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I'm in that pleasantly thoughtless stage between the waking world and sweet, sweet sleep right now. So incoherency seems like a viable option, though I'll try to keep things understandable.

Eric gave me another CD today which is full of fun things like Gackt and Incubus and Initial D... He has like zillions of MP3s and I don't have so many. I'm downloading lots lately though. Like, I wanted to get the soundtracks to both the Conan movie and the Dune movie because they're really cool, but they're hard to find, and every time I look for the Dune one, I get the audio book. Phooey. Anyway, I at first felt like I wasn't reciprocating, but now I realize how lucky I am to get presents, as simple as they might be.

Shit, I'm falling asleep at the keyboard, time to quit. Too bad it was premature.
:: Jessi 2/18/2003 12:52:00 AM [+] ::
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Alright, I really need to get something off my chest because it's been bothering me for... well... most of my adult life (which, admittedly isn't so long, but I'm damn pissed anyway.)

CAN WOMEN FUCKING SIT DOWN ON THE GOD DAMNED TOILET SEAT?!?!?!?!?!?

There's nothing I hate worse lately than going into a public restroom, opening the stall, and seeing yellow liquidy spots on the toilet seat, and sometimes a non-flushed toilet additionally. Yeah, okay, maybe you other wimpy women are all afraid of the nasty-wasty germy-wormies living on the public toilet seat, but I've lived 21 years already, and never gotten an ass-flesh-eating illness from a toilet seat. Just sit the hell down. What the fuck is going on when you spray the seat, and then DON'T WIPE IT OFF AFTERWARD???? It's inexcusable. I can only imagine what these women are doing, sitting with their you-know-whats an inch off the seat... they've gotta be waving it around or something to achieve such utter filthiness. And not flushing the toilet, causing me to see your shit in addition to the wizz I already had to see, it's totally impolite.

SIT DOWN ON THE FUCKING TOILET SEAT.

*excuse my coarse language*

Anyway, I had a nice time at work today, because it wasn't busy and I managed to read four magazines and draw Eric a rather nice picture of a spunky elf girl. This is what happens Sunday mornings at Target, but I'm not arguing. I also had a dream last night that I really can't remember much of, except for the fact that it involved water and swimming pools and stuff. It's difficult, because it was really more of an atmosphere thing than a coherent narrative, so I can't really help you all to understand what I'm talking about. Boo.

Well, right now I'm downloading music to add to my collection, which has been heavily weighted towards Final Fantasy up until this point. Not a bad thing, but I'd like to expand my horizons. Email me if you have any suggestions.

Today I got to ride with my dad out to Richfield to pick up a TV stand from a Circuit City out there. They didn't carry it at the one by our house, but she wanted this specific one, so we went out there to get it. It was sort of fun, because we got to go by the new Best Buy central headquarters building, which doesn't look to be in use yet, but is really big and cool-looking. A lot of people don't like buildings that big, but I think they're cool.

I can't think of anything else to write about, so I'm outta here.
Owarimasu.
:: Jessi 2/16/2003 07:51:00 PM [+] ::
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Well, I'm keeping this short because I have to go to bed soon. I gotta get up early to go back to work, poo poo.

Valentine's was fun, because Eric and I made lemon chicken at his house, and it turned out well. it was a simple recipe, but sometimes simple is the best. He made rice, and it was good too. Nice Japanese rice which stuck together the right way, good for using chopsticks ^_^ And he got me an awesome book, the Atlas of Middle Earth, which has all sorts of fun stuff in it. I read forty pages the day I got it, because it was so interesting. Cool stuff about battles and stuff too.

Today, I got up after a sufficient amount of sleep, chilled for a couple hours watching the Food Network, and then went to work, where I basically just chilled too, because it wasn't busy. I was there for about nine hours, and now I'm here at home, being naughty because I have to get up early tomorrow to go back to work. What a life. And then, the really harsh part of it all is that I have to get up early on Monday because I work then too. Do the injustices never end?? At least I get Wednesday and Friday morning to sleep in. But I'm happy in my heart because my mom bought some salsa for me. Mmmm, salsa...

Sometimes I wonder if people think I'm really focused on food or something because I talk about it all the time and I always seem hungry. Well, I've been hungry lately because I'm back in school and have been doing a lot of walking because of it. And I'm in a good mood, so my body is all like "feed me" all the time. Plus I'm lucky in that I like complex flavors and many varieties of food. So it's almost like a hobby to me, trying all sorts of yummy things. And sometimes there's just nothing to do this late at night but write in my blog and snack (but I had a salad for a snack tonight, so at least I'm keeping healthy and all that.) So my love of food is probably just because I like variety and I have a lifestyle which keeps me hungry ^_^

Well, I just want to end by saying that I have an awesome boyfriend and I had a great Valentine's with him. *^_^*
:: Jessi 2/16/2003 12:32:00 AM [+] ::
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Blah... I got nine hours of sleep last night and I'm still tired. I must need like twelve hours a night or something to feel normal. Anyway...

Today I did something which I hadn't done in a long time, that is, I walked from the West Bank campus to the East Bank campus in the 15 minutes I had between my two classes. Generally, to save myself the torture, I'll take the bus to the other side, but the last couple of days, I've missed it because my prof has trouble letting us out on time. Tuesday, I waited for the next bus, which then made me late for class. Today, rather than be late again, I attempted the trek, doing some mad power walking all the way to the other side. I got to my class with a couple of minutes to spare, but boy was I just killed from the walk. Normally I'm sure it wouldn't have been a problem, but it was frickin cold out and the air just isn't really that good. So I felt like crud, and my legs were hurtin. Maybe that's why I'm so tired today.

Anime club was fun tonight, because, in honor of valentine's day, we were watching girl-love and boy-love themed shows. Yes, that kind of love. The amount of people who showed up was noticeably smaller than usual, which I guess is to be expected, but I had a good time. Burakku-san was absent, but then he tends to have a low tolerance for alternative lifestyles. Or frivolity, maybe that's why he has no passion. I will stop now before I begin to get angry.

Tomorrow Eric and I are going to have a special Valentine's day, because I am going to cook. Let's cross our fingers and hope that I don't screw up and burn something, or get the recipe wrong. That would really ruin things.

Oy, I need some sleep.
:: Jessi 2/14/2003 12:25:00 AM [+] ::
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Sorry about my lack of posting the last couple of days. Normally I post later in the night, but the homework I've had the last couple days has disagreed with that schedule (I was up until 3:30am Sunday, or Monday I guess, working on a Japanese assignment with Eric.) Last night, not quite so late, but I still had to get up early this morning and ended up waking up late anyway. Go me. So I thought now would be a good time to catch up because Eric, who I normally talk to at this time of the day, is at a study group with some people from Japanese class. And I have minimal homework for tomorrow (most of which is prep for the TWO quizzes I have for Japanese tomorrow, grr.)

Today was not so bad, because I got my big stressful bit of crappy homework done last night (which was a bibliography for my women's history course.) I got all my readings done and stuff. I think the only thing that went somewhat wrong was that I was a little late to my second class today, but that was my history teacher's fault because she decided to wait until after the class was over to pass back the writing assignment we had done. So I was late for the bus I usually take. That frustrates me, you know? Like, my time is valuable too. As disrespectful as it would be for me to leave class early, it's just as disrespectful for the prof to cut into my time. Hmph. Anyway, waiting for the bus did give me time to finish the reading for my Kurosawa film class. Not that I had to read it at all, because class was mostly just a lecture about bits and bobs of Japanese history after WWII. Interesting, but not pertinent, as is usually the case in that class. We did touch on some more film noir later in the class, but that wasn't covered very much at all. Funny, since it does happen to be a fricking film class...

Japanese was pretty good. I didn't get called on at all, which was just as well because I was feeling really tired. The sun was shining in the window right onto my back, and it was really warm and I was sleepy. So I wasn't paying too much attention anyway. It was just a review anyway. Afterwards Eric and I went to get some lunch and chill. I was not feeling very well today, but it was fun anyway. Maybe a lot of it is that I don't hold in warmth, and he's really warm. Anyway, we spent some lazy time at his apartment also. I didn't want to leave, but I had to come home. Oh, well.

This evening, after dinner, I went to the grocery store and got the ingredients I needed to make lemon chicken for Valentine's day. I actually had quite a few of the things already, which made it a lot easier. The funny thing is, I needed chicken broth, so we got some that came in containers quite similar in size and appearance to juice boxes, so we're hoping that my sister will mistake one for juice and get a nasty surprise ^o^. I'm such a jerk.

Last night I had a dream about tornadoes. I've been having these dreams since I was really little, and they all involve close calls with tornadoes. No one ever dies or gets hurt. If I'm in a house or building, it's almost always narrowly missed by the tornado. This time I was in the car with my mom when it began to rain. We were driving by the mall by my house, and in the distance I could see two or three winding tornadoes, dark grey against a pale grey sky. We drove towards them in the car, swerving back and forth to avoid them. We curved down an exit ramp, where the car flipped and my mom and I had to get out. We thought that we were safe by then, but I could see some distortion in the air getting closer and closer. It was a tornado remnant, which began to pull me up into the sky. And that's when I woke up ^_^ I have such bizarre dreams.

See, now that was a nice long entry. Eric just got online, so that means I'd better end this so I can pay attention :p hee hee
:: Jessi 2/11/2003 09:08:00 PM [+] ::
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Yay, got up late today. I thought the workmen would be putting siding on today, and thus would be making a horrible racket, but apparently not, so I got to sleep in a little. That left me very little time to do stuff before work this morning, but I knew work would be cake today, so it wasn't a thing. I would have liked to have called Eric before work, because I didn't really get to talk to him online like usual, but we talked after I got home so it was all good.

Tonight at work, when it was really not busy, a woman got beat up by her boyfriend in the parking lot. Paul the security guy saw it all, and called the police, while the woman sobbed near the service desk. Then the guy came in and tried to get her to come home with him, and it just made me sick how he was all apologizing after having done such a horrible thing to her. It was positively revolting. I think my dad put it best when, after I told him the story, he said that he'd like to take a pliers, peel the guy's skin off and rub salt on the wounds. Graphic, yes, but it's hard censor yourself when such an appalling act is committed.

Damn, I need to quit starting to write just as I'm getting tired. I'll write early in the day tomorrow, so that I can keep my thoughts straight. For now, it's bedtime. Wish me some good dreams.
:: Jessi 2/09/2003 01:24:00 AM [+] ::
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I wrote a fricking long post here, but damn if I didn't just lose it while trying to post it.

To summarize, today Japanese class was good, I had a dream about Mormons, and I spent some fun time with Eric. It was a good day (except for this little issue here, but I guess I'll have to overlook it.)

Next time I'll make a backup just in case.
:: Jessi 2/08/2003 02:26:00 AM [+] ::
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Eric loaned me his sweatshirt and I loaned him mine, so now we're both warm and can think about each other more than we already do :p I know everyone wants to hear about it.

I had another odd, yet really short dream last night. The part that I remember involved me going to a store called "The Dehydrated Store" where you could buy dehydrated foods in bulk like those candy stores (you know, you just scoop it out from a bin into a plastic bag.) There was a demo going on where they were rehydrating the foods so we could see what they looked like. They used that dehydrated scrambled egg powder, and also dehydrated coctail weenies for the demo. That's about all I remember, but the coctail weenies were somewhat significant, because the day before in class, Eric and I and some other students from Japanese were laughing about coctail weenies because we mistook an apple fritter for them. I guess you had to be there.

Today I went with Eric and Jo to United Noodle, which is a special grocery store which stocks Asian foods. Eric got an 11lb sack of rice and some canned coffee and gummies. Plus, there's this kid in anime club and his name is Vu Dang, and we found a kind of candy called "Nu Dang" so we bought him a bag because it was just funny. We're easily amused like that. I got some snow pea crisps (basically fried snow peas in the pod) which have an odd yet good taste to them. I also got some "shrimp snacks" which are basically fried shrimp cakes that have the texture of a light potato chip. Also an unusual flavor, but oddly satisfying in some way. Jo wanted me to get this one kind of drink called "ramune" which is I guess pop with a little ball in the neck so you basically get to drink out of it like a hamster water bottle. Hmm. I bet it's better than it seems, though. Last but not least were some melon candies that I got because I knew someone who got some and they were good. They were a little pricey, but I eat candy slowly, so it's all good.

Damn, I'd write more here, but I want to try and write some actual prose while I'm feeling inspired tonight, so that's it for now.
:: Jessi 2/06/2003 11:51:00 PM [+] ::
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Time for my daily bloggage action ^_^

I got an awesome amount of sleep last night (went to bed at 11pm, instead of 2am) so I had some interesting dreams and stuff during the night. You wanna hear about it? Yeah, I know you do.

In one of them I was inside some sort of school, which was constructed of those grey concrete blocks you find in the foundations of buildings. Yet the whole building was constructed of them, with no sort of wall covering to disguise them. I was on the landing of a staircase, with one staircase going up from where I was, and the other going down. I walked down the stairs, and came to a glass hallway where two other girls were waiting. They were cheerleaders from the school, and apparently also my good friends. Looking out the glass hallway, I could see that the school was in the middle of a large desert, which was surrounded far on the perimiter by trees. Suddenly, there was an explosion in the distance, and a huge mushroom cloud billowed into the sky. I thought that we were all too far away to be affected by it, but the shock spread all the way out to the school, and we could feel it. We all realized that we had to put some sort of barrier up, or we'd all start to feel ill effects from the radiation from the bomb. We found a plastic shield, and shielded the hallway from the radiation. However, the plastic kept shrinking. At one point, I discovered that I was outside of the school on the sandy ground, and feeling heat that wasn't from the weather, and breathing air that stung. The end.

The second dream wasn't as much of a straight narrative. I remember images of being in a grocery store parking lot, and watching the parking lot attendant put away the orange juice and milk, which just happened to be stored on shelves which bordered the parking lot, because it was so cold out that they wouldn't go bad. Then, I was on the phone with someone who turned out to be Elijah Wood, and he was telling me all about starting college and thinking it was really cool.

Sorry, Eric, you weren't in any of the dreams, but I was thinking of you anyway ^_^

I can't say that school was particularly interesting today, but Eric did bring me dinner after I whined about having forgotten to bring one. That was awesome, I'm not used to such nice treatment. And he complimented me in his blog about being good at Japanese. Yay, I feel smart ^_^

Well, kiddies, I think it's time Jessi went to be so that she can be coherent tomorrow. Hope things are awesome for everyone else.
:: Jessi 2/06/2003 01:08:00 AM [+] ::
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Yay, gonna do a real entry today, or something ^_^ Eric's updating his blog every day, so I want to as well. Even if nothing dramatic is going on, the writing practice is good.

So, let's see... I was up really late last night because I was working on my Japanese homework, which you may have read about in my previous entry. I was planning to stay up no later than midnight, since I have to get up at 8am, but I ended up being awake until 2-something. Go me. I do wanna talk to my boyfriend, though. I guess the sleepiness isn't all that bad a thing.

Today I came to school and spent most of the day sitting in class and being woozy. In my Kurosawa film class, I drew little pictures while the teacher lectured, and then did nothing when we broke up into groups to discuss stuff because I hadn't done the reading. Damn course packets. ANYWAY, it didn't really matter because I never participate in class discussions anyway. I know I have an A- secured for that class because that's just the grade this prof likes to give to me.

After class Eric and I went to get the aforementioned course packet, went to get some certification letters to give to my insurance company and I put some money in the bank (rather than spending it all on school, which has been the case lately). Then we went and spent some time at his apartment, which was really nice. Cuz it's warm in there and stuff. Really!

RAR, I'm getting tired again. Always when I want to write something important, I get with the tired. Well, tomorrow I'll maybe get to write about the movie I'm watching in my Kurosawa class. I vaguely remember something about film noir, but I wasn't paying attention in class ^_^ Should be good, though.

Ciao
:: Jessi 2/04/2003 10:57:00 PM [+] ::
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Brrr, samuku narimashita ne.

So yeah, it snowed like a motha' last night and then it was all slushy and wet today. And then, to top it all off, it got really windy and cold and nasty out. So I basically got chilled to the bone waiting for the bus downtown... I did get to spend some time with Eric in between classes today though. That was really nice because his apartment is seriously stuck in a tropical zone. I'm not complaining ^_^

I've been up for the past couple of hours doing my Japanese homework too, with Eric and Andrew online doing it with me. That's interesting, when you have two people trying to confirm their answers with you. It would be so much simpler if they were in the room with me. Too bad -_-

Brrrr, it's so frickin cold in my room. I'm shivering because the bottoms of my pants got wet and never completely dried off, so it's really cold and uncomfortable. I think it's probably time for bed.
:: Jessi 2/04/2003 01:30:00 AM [+] ::
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Mostly a good day today :)

I was up last night really late talking to Eric on the phone. It's been such a long time since I talked to anyone on the phone that I thought it was going to be awkward, but it was really awesome (except when my mom woke up and got mad at me for talking on the phone so late...) He is a really awesome guy. I'm so lucky! I know he thinks he's the lucky one, but I know it's me :P

Well, anyway, I ignored my alarm this morning and got up twenty minutes before I had to be to work. That was an adventure, but I made it on time and having showered, dried my hair, and had some form of breakfast. Then I worked for four hours and came home, and of course immediately ended up on the computer talking to Eric and Brian. I talked to Eric until he and his friend went to watch a movie. Then I ate dinner and stuff.

Yesterday I got a call from my friend Jill, who told me that she was engaged (I'm happy for them, but I must say that I wasn't surprised at all, I knew it was bound to happen eventually ^_^). She asked me to be the maid of honor in her wedding! That is so awesome, I can't believe it. It's hard for me to grasp the fact that one of my closest friends is entering this new stage of life, but I think it's just awesome.

I was gonna write this big long entry, but I feel content enough to stop now. :)
:: Jessi 2/02/2003 09:12:00 PM [+] ::
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